love+hate lyric ♥

it has been a while since the last entry.. it was fullhouse again.. and therefore i didn't get any chance to slip into my bro's room and use the pc for hours as i used to.. there would always be a fight!!

for this entry.. i put a lyric that i find most poetic and beautiful.. it's written by my fav author : HLOVATE.. he/she is the best writer i've ever met.. i love every single piece of his/her works.. it's just awesome..!! he/she (again...*sigh*) knows how to blend the stories, characters very well. and each of them tells different tale.. which i think has never slipped from the reality.. those stories do happen in our daily lives.. and each role comes very alive.. till sometimes i just started to feel that i'm the one who "play" the entire story..

btw.. the writer wrote this song especially for one of his/her novel: the Great Troublemaker aka aA+bB. i still remember this part when Benji dedicates this song to the only girl in his life: Didi.. if i were Didi (but she really hates him at that time..*sigh*) i might turn to blue..(and yet blush..LOL) yeah.. i mean having someone who could stand on the stage and tell me that he dedicates this song to me.. wow..!! (only in my dreams.. *wink + sigh*)

so this is the song.. take a look at those words.. ngee~~ ;))

~HLOVATE~

You wonder
Is it an angel or yet
Maybe a sweet dream that you can’t forget
So close yet far-fetched
Causing you to float on the line
between reality and fantasy

c/o Haunted the nightmares
Creates the ecstasy
Hlovate~oh poisonous honey
Love and hate
Driving me crazy

The poison ivy of Venus
Killing with venom so sweet
You’re losing your head
Don’t want it yet it keep haunting
Losing yourself in the suffocating mist

c/o

The blind arrows of
Piercing cold ice and
warm melting heart
Tearing me apart

could someone pls compose a song..? i'm glad to sing this by myself.. (some friends told me that i have a lovely voice.. then why not.. aite?) ;pp


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what's my medical specialty..?

The medical specialty for you is.... Cardiology

Cardiology is the best of all specialties. As a cardiologist, you'll be sure to profit from the sharp increase in obesity. You'll open at clinic across the street from a McDonalds and retire a billionaire.

tak sangke.. i never thought the medical term that would appear is cardiology.. i've never been interested in cardiology.. the heart thingy.. nehi..! i was hoping for neuro surgeon to appear but... hmmm.. it results from my crappy answers.. the deadliest sin: sloth. and i wanna be filthy rich.. hehh~

and frankly speaking.. i've never ever been thinking of getting involved in this medical field. i still remember people asking what i'm gonna be when i grow up.. and told 'em i wanna be a CEO.. successful businesswoman.. a scientist.. an artist.. but never a doctor.

getting inspired by those characters from medical-based tv shows : scrubs, house MD, ER, grey's anatomy, nip/tuck, and private practice... it is still me, the person who'd always afraid of taking pills began to love everything within the human anatomy. the intention towards becoming a medical doctor developed from time to time. after a young doctors' programme in HUSM back when i was in form5, i knew that i didn't need to think twice. i found that this field is incredibly fascinating. yeah.. and to look at the doctors themselves.. struggle so hard to keep their patients living. i suddenly realize how important the doctors are. they deal with people's lives. the burden on their shoulder.. the responsibility they have to carry.. keeping everything under control.. their patients, the patients' family.. and even their personal life. it would never be easy.

i am now just at the starting line. the real journey hasn't start yet. i'm looking forward to experience all those bittersweet-memory-in-a-doctor's-diary by myself.. and i'm really hoping that someday the medical degree would rest in my hands. fulfill my dream..

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what weather am i..?

tadi bwat kuiz lagi.. apakah cuaca ku...?
panas terik..? hujan lebat..? ribut petir..? banjir kilat..?
and i'm a..

Rainbow Rita

Right after a storm is when you show your true colors. You have a brightside and a darkside, but that's just fine! You can live in the sun or dance in the rain. It's all good for you. Nothing can bring you down!

yes.. itu memang tepat.. kan dh cakap.. cik zetty cukup kenal diri sniri. takyah bwat kuiz pon takpe.. p saje.. di kala kebuhsanan merajai diri.. dari membohsiakan diri mlm bute ke.. ade baek bwat kuiz personaliti.. personaliti..?? haha.. klakar je pkataan tu.. personaliti. personal?? i should just keep this for myself, shouldn't i?

saye ade brightside dan darkside. hmmm... betol..!! brightside adalah bile rase cam baek sgt nak masok dapur tlg mama masak.. malangnye niat sentiase dihalang.

mama: takyah laa.. menyemak je masok dapor.

bukan salahku.. mama yg x penah menerime kehadiran diri ni dlm ruang dapur yg x brape nak luas tu.. mungkin jugak disebabkan faktor tu mama slalu mereject kehandakku utk menunjukkan skill memasak. hmm.. ye kot. lagi? brightside adalah bile rase rajen nak tlg nana bwat homework. tu pon.. sbb mama suroh.. p klo mama tak suroh pon.. errmmm.. tlg jugak kot.. kesian kat adek.. hehehehehe ;pp cik zetty mmg baek..
dan darkside nye pulak bile slalu je marah nana.

cik zetty: nana nak jadi mende? blajar malas. tuition tamoh pegi. main game siang malam. berangan je keje. along, kak ila, ami pon brangan tapi tak laa mcm nana. nak jadi penyanyi? model? blakon? takyah skolah..

kijamnye.. p mmg kenyataan. mama pon puas dh potpet2.. die wat dek je.. dah lali kot. dan darkside lagi cik zetty bile time memaki hamun pihak2 tertentu yg tlh menyebabkan dirinye susah hati. bukan dpn2 laa.. pihak kolej cthnye.. ketidaktelusan mereka dlm membuat kerja menyebabkan cik zetty piker mereka sekadar mkn gaji bute.. dan juge blagak pandai semata-mata. dan ade juge mulot ni terhasut dgn godaan rakan2 termasuklaa syaitan utk bercerite ttg org laen yg juga disebot sbg mengumpat. well.. keje pompuan.. biaselaa tuh..! ;p but somehow.. i wont ever backstabbing my own frens owkay..

kadang2 saye juge blh menjadi ribut petir.. kerane ade org yg tlh mengganggu sy ketike emosi sy tidak stabil.. dan pernah juge sy menjadi salji air batu tanpe perise kerana ketiadaan mood utk berbicara. ini lazimnye terjadi ketike sy berhadapan dgn org yg sy tidak sukai/org yg sy taw tak menyukai sy..

slalunye saye adelah sang pelangi. walaopon muncul slepas hujan tapi tetap punyai warna yg membahagiakan....





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oh, chentaku~

hari ni cik zetty nak berbicara tentang chenta.. apa itu chenta? adakah cik zetty maksodkan band indie yg faymesnye hingga ke indon itu.. yang mana yuna telah mengcoverkan lagu polaroidnya? oh tidak.. perkataan chenta yang dibicarakan di sini tiada kaitan langsong2 dgn band itu. mungkin sekadar unsur chenta mainan perasaan yang disadur dalam lagu2 mereka bersangkut paut dgn topik ini. berdasarkan pengamatan dan pengalaman serta pemikiran cik zetty.. cik zetty berpendapat bahawa chenta memang wujud. yang slalunye kite: insan yang buta, tuli dan bisu ni, nmpak hanyelah chenta antara 2 manusia. ketepikan soal chenta antara sang uda dan dara. itu sudah pasti menjadi perkara pertame yg terlintas dlm kotak fikiran. dan cik zetty yang sedang menulis.. ermmm menaip ni juga tertanye-tanye kini, wajarkah kirenya die berbahasa begini. dan apa signifikan istilah chenta itu sendiri yg bisa membuatkan cik zetty menulis.. maap. menaip sebegini rupe? agung sangatkah istilah chenta itu sendiri?

ya! chenta itu memang agung sekiranya diabadikan kepada pencipta-Nya. Dia, yang lebih berhak, lebih layak menerima kasih sayang, ketaatan, dan juga ketulusan yg tak berbelah bahagi. bukan hanya sekadar dijadikan sandaran, pengubat luka semata-mata di saat diri dilanda musibah. dan ya! chenta itu memang agung sekiranya chenta itu di'hadiah'kan pada Yang Satu itu dgn penuh keikhlasan dan kesetiaan. dan chenta itu memang hebat sekiranya ditujukan pada Dia, Yang Maha Berkuasa menjadikan setiap sesuatu itu. tak pernah lupa.. alpa walau dlm keadaan yang paling sukar sekalipun. tetap kembali bersujud, redha pada-Nya setelah habis daya titik peluh dicurahkan. dan chenta itu memanglah chenta yang paling bermakna jika setiap saat digunakan dengan memanfaatkan kurnian-Nya, menjadi khalifah di bumi Tuhan bagi mendapat keredhaan dan keberkatan-Nya.

yang utama, harus dichentai.. ibubapa.. keluarga.. kawan-kawan.. chenta bukan sekadar bermaksud i love you.. i wanna spend my whole life with you.. tak.. bukan.. definisi chenta di sini lebih kepada berkasih sayang. ramuan utama untuk hidup bersama. dan chenta itu juga bukan bermaksud memiliki.. "menyimpan" mereka selama mana yang kita mahu. tetapi untuk memberi dan menerima. paling tepat: berkongsi. yang kita tengok hubungan mesra ayah-mak, abang-adik, kawan-kawan, dan pasti kekasih-kekasih. tapi cuba kita "lihat" apa yang ada di sebalik semua itu? satu jalinan.. hubungan yang erat.. seorang kakak takkan ucapkan 'chenta' kepada adiknya. tetapi seorang suami tetap akan ucapkan sayang pada isterinya. chenta sesama makhluk tidak kekal. tetapi sayang? ya.. sentiasa ada. marah mana sekalipun seseorang itu.. rasa simpati.. sayang tetap wujud. contoh yang paling mudah.. kasih sayang antara haiwan dan manusia. rasa chenta pada kucing itu juga chenta. rasa sentiasa memerlukan. sayang. tiada sempadan. bila berjauhan, rindu mula menghinggap.

dan chenta itu juga bukan menchentai, menyayangi, atau melindungi orang lain semata-mata. bahkan juga chenta kepada diri sendiri. memang betul.. tak boleh selfish nak hidup tapi kita tak boleh jadi selfless kalau tak nak mati. ada orang yang kemaruk dengan chenta sesama insan hinggakan sanggup gadaikan nyawa sendiri. ape kes..?? nw this is zetty talking: definisi chenta tu sangatlaa luas. yg kite nampak. yes. sure. couple2 di kaki lima. tu ke chenta? dan klo drama omputeh plak, sex and lust ade termasuk skali lam skop nye. ade yang sanggup commit suicide sebab awek lari.. balek kat pakwe lame.. kne reject. tu tak kire lagi yg u jump, i jump! yg if i'm gonna die.. i'll die with you, and only you.. ye ke? takk.. bukan.. niat tak menghalalkan cara. i might not be sooooo alim and miss-knows-everything-a to z, tapi yg tu memang dah sah. terang lagi bersuluh. nak sayangi, chentai orang laen.. sayang diri sniri dah cukop? chenta badan sniri dah cukop? dan chenta diri sendiri tu jugak bukan maksodnye nak kne pegi spa manjekan diri. bli barang mahal tempek kat muke. pakai baju sutera mahal. tak.. bukan.. tapi sayang diri dengan jauhkan dulu mende2 yg boleh rosakkan diri. dekatkan diri dengan Tuhan. dan respect diri sniri. this ain't shit! i'm grabbing no words from any commercial break or whatsoever.. bukan tiru 3R. tapi memang betol. nak respect (since respect pon termasok dlm skop chenta) org yg kite chentai tu.. respect ourself first. dan respek tu jugak bukan takat angkat tangan tabik toink toink je. respek tu hormat: jaga, pelihara. klo paham ni.. takkan tegadai body atas nama chenta ituuuu. chenta boleh dijual beli. yes. tapi body? maw paham sniri laa..

dan akhir skali.. yes.. nw i'm totally getting back to the 'ol zetty.. no crappy baku-baku words. chenta sang uda dan dara memang pijak-angkat-baling masok bin je. sebab? bukan sebab frust ke ape. sebab tader gune. sumenye dusta.. mainan perasaan semata-mata. bikin emo je lbey. hmmm... kan dah cakap.. ;))





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.masa depan. future.

hehh.. eeiii.. mmg allergy sunggoh la klo cakap bab mase depan ni. p arini nak cakap jugak. sebab? ermm.. tader sebab. tetibe je terpikir caner kehidupan 10 taon akan dtg? naahh.. 5 taon akan dtg pon dah cukop. same ade berjaye jadi student medic final year yg mcm dah komfem akan graduate jd dokter? ataupon flunk? atau kne kick awal2 lagi?

last week kot. mama call isep. yg tukang jwp tu ckp placement ke czech dah komfem. tinggal nak settle ngan mara je lagi. syukur. alhamdulillah. selame ni rase cam insecure je sbb just check name thru the net je. well... unreliable. yelaa.. sah2 terpampang 71138's admitted, welcome to czech rep. yeke? rasenye jwp entrance test tu ntah hape2. sume maen bedal je. sungguhlaa. kuasa Allah. mmg rezeki kot. wani, ell yg terer tu pon xdpt. mmg tak caye langsong2. 9 je yg pass out of 50. mase bihah call bgtaw dpt mmg speechless. tergamam. terkejut sgt2. mmg tataw nak ckp ape. dhlaa time tu tgh packing nak balek. mase call mama ngan abah pon, dorang pon tataw nak ckp ape. sume tak caye. paling ingat mase turun dinner ngan bihah, bel, farah. ingat lagi muke bihah. awal2 mmg tak hrp sgt. p bile kwn dah dpt. baru rase cam kehilangan. hmm.. hilang peluang. tu ckp bihah. mase tu mmg tak boleh nak piker. senyom je. org ckp...praise pon.. senyom je. sebab mmg tataw nak ckp ape. lps tu bile piker balek. betol ckp bihah. if i were in her shoes.. mmg rase mcm tu jugak. tu yg nampak. deep down.. tataw jugak. nak kesian pon.. i dont think she need one. nak pegi europe. walaopon dalam list top10 tapi rasenye wani lagi deserve. tgk die.. speaking cam air. leadership. she knows almost everything. yeahh... beauty with brain. tapi.. tu laa. name pon rezeki kan. dan betol jugak topic yg die post tak lame dlu. ade yg down to 3.7 pon dah boleh pegi amek entrance test europe. klo ade rezeki dorg dpt. dan rasenye dia ade hak nak pertikaikan tentang tu. she struggled so hard utk sampai tahap tu, with such extraordinary ability but at the end of the day org lain yg tak payah nak dicomparekan dgn die pon dapat. tapi tak boleh nak cakap ape gak. rezeki. Tuhan nak bagi. tak boleh halang.

berbalik pd cerite asal. search kat google. tgk prague. cantik!! charles university, medical faculty in hradec kralove. klo tader aral melintang insyaallah sampai jugak september ni. jgn jadi kes mcm ade budak jpa aritu. dh admitted satu u kat uk, then pinjaman 800k tak lulus. so.. pegi indon. bukan nak perkecilkan india or indon. p mmg kpale dah set nak pijak europe. nak pegang snow. bau autumn. indahnye spring. cuci mate mase summer. ha-ha. kidding.. mampus abah korek ngan garpu jadi zetty tak selamat. sempat jugak siasat pasal u tu. takot tak recognized by govern je. p bile buke czech punye official website, kat education.. charles uni la yg 1st kuwa. org isep ckp ni antara uni medic terawal. faymes la kot. taper taper.. caye kat mara.. caye kat msu. hehe ;))

ni few photos yg disearch.. harap sangat dpt jejak kaki kat sane. with God's will.. insyaallah..

charles university. faculty of medicine in hradec kralove.

hradec kralove town.. ermmm city.. i'm looking forward to see all these by myself. ;))

the national museum.. in prague..
hehh.. muzium yg dekat secoet ni pon tak penah jejak. ;pp

and lastly charles bridge yg sangat faymes itu.. ;))

frankly speaking. i dont really.. errmm hw am i supposed to say this.. "obsess" dengan persoalan2 yg hanye menyesakkan kepale. "what'll happen in 20 years time?".. "when am i going to... bla..bla..bla..." as for me, i would pick the path that i think the best one and just go with the flow. ikot je. make decision when i'd asked to. and most important make the best out of it. jangan lupe.. berserah.. tawakal. ape pon nak jadi.. sumenye ketentuan Yang Maha Esa. yang pasti. perjalanan yg sebenar, yg sukar bermule september ni. bile dah jejak kaki kat tanah hradec kralove tu. may Allah bless~~



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quiz.. lalala~

hari ni buat kuiz. sebab ape? sebab nak kenal diri sniri.. slame 18 taon idop ni tak kenal2 lagi ke cik kak? tak. yeke tak? slalu cam pandai sangat? erkk... ade bende yg kita tataw.. kene tanye experts. lala~

kuiz pertama hari ni.

how boycrazy are you..?

tak sangke cik zetty bwat kuiz ni. dah terangan tang tang tang.. adelaa soklan tanye klo ade cute guy sbelah meja.. klo pegi party then nengok sume org ade partner.. nak wat pe? klo ade plan ngan BFF then laki tu ajak kuwa, nak pilih sape? hah.. lawak sunggoh. ade bodyguard cenggitu, compulsory kah..? jwpnku tetap same.. bois are stupid. throw rocks at 'em.. pots and pans too.. sorry~~
dan resultnye : You're not boycrazy -- you're boy-sane. You are the opposite of boycrazy. No matter how much you like a guy, you're able to be your practical, clear-thinking self in his presence. Even in a room full of cute guys, you'd probably be just as calm, self-assured, and down to earth as you always are. In your life, boycraziness is unnecessary -- boys are probably crazy about YOU.
kan dah ckp.. daku cukup knl diri sniri.. but then knape nak bwat jugak?? hehh.. cume bab yg last tuu.. ermmm.. kne kasi cantas.. nehi..nehi.. ;pp


kuiz kedua... jeng jeng jeng..

what's your slowdance song?

pandai sunggoh cik zetty bwat lawak arini.. mmg tak lawak langsong2! nak slowdance ape.. dancefloor pon tadak.. igt kaki clubbing pe.. soklan2 nye berkisar tentang impian mase tgh bergoyang tu.. ngan sape? ngan laki i owkay, bukan muhrim yg halaaal. kat mane? dan tetibe je terase diri macam romentik giler. ha-ha! it's just soooo funny that i forgot to laugh.. ;) what..? star-gazing cik zetty? dancing in the moonlight? hujan? ntah hape2 ntah.. they even asked me if my slowdance partner pulls me closer and kisses me, how i want the kiss to feel like..? sheesh. crap! sangat lawak laa.?
keputusannye...: my slowdance song is "Our Song" by Tylor Swift
"Our song is the slamming screen door, sneakin' out late, tapping on your window..."
Your idea of romance is fresh air, a big grassy field, and running towards each other barefoot, anticipating a hug... or sharing a blanket under a clear night sky where you feel like every starry sparkle in the darkness was put there just for you. Real romance doesn't need limos -- with the right person, old T-shirts, torn jeans, and a handful of wildflowers are just as special as formalwear and a corsage. The best memories don't necessarily happen when you're all dressed up on the dance floor... they happen whenever and wherever the moment is right.
hmmmm.. yelaa tuuu.. ;pp


ngantuk dah. nak tido. tata~
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